Ni yao de bu shi wo- Lin Jun Jie

Okay my one week block leave is ending..
What did I do?
Monday shopping at town with mad..
Tuesday shopping at town alone..
Wednesday MOS and Club Momo with sm, cy, sj
Thursday went to Kenny's house with Mad to watch kiss..
Then go Jeju with sis to eat korean food..
Then shopping at Bugis..
Today I went shopping again with mad at Bugis and Town..
Next two days will be back to work..
Then back to school..
Sianz.. I can't wait for the next 2 weeks break..
With more people free during the break..

MOS ladies night= Free entry

Club Momo ladies night= Free entry & Free flow of drinks

[The good thing about ladies night is... the men don't get it.. HAHA.. okay lame]

MOS= deco gorgeous but cannot even squeeze into the RnB room
Club Momo= music great but the drinks sucks

Saw my junior there..
Her words made me think..
Maybe it is really time to let go..

Anyway do I really look decent?
Do I have a look which says I am easily persuaded or cheated?
Do I look blur and stupid?
HAHA... DOTS..

Song intro: Ni Yao De Bu Shi Wo- Lin Jun Jie

Blind- Lifehouse

Changed my ATM card..
It is called the "Advanced ATM Card"..
Functions are the same as the Mastercard..
You can use it as normal Nets..
Or can use your signature to purchase items..
You can even use it overseas..
Just that you cannot use it for online purchases..
The only thing that I am dissatisfied is..
SHE GAVE ME A CARD WITH TONS OF SCRATCHES..
WTH.. NVM..

Think I have written this a lot of times..
LOLX.. but just bear with me..
Top Guys on my List..
1. Takki Hideaki

2. Ryu Shi Won

3. Jay Chou

4. Zheng Yuan Chang

5. Edison Chen

6. Daniel Wu

And the list goes on...

Song intro: Blind- Lifehouse

Hao ai ta hao xiang ta- 183club & 7flowers

Watched Just Like Heaven and Huo Yuan Jia..
What should I watch next?
King Kong? Harry Potter? In Her Shoes?
But i have more cravings for It started with a kiss..
Sighs.. My final 3 episodes..
It has been almost 2 months..
I shall continue waiting..

Shopping at town these two days..
Change my blog skin..
Having my own concert at home..
With my loyal supporters- the four walls..

Just now watch Zhong Yi Da Ge Da..
Jay Chou's so funny and cute..
Think Lia will definitely agree with me..

Read my friend's blog..
Got to know that he broke up with my *that friend..
[*whom I was very disappointed with]
Quite sad for them..
Though I don't like to talk about my that friend..
Haven't been keeping in touch with them..
Especially with that friend of mine..

No more bad news please..

Song intro: Hao ai ta hao xiang ta- 183club & 7flowers

Love me again- Kelly

Been moody..
Angel noticed it..

My close friend’s mum passed away..
Very shocked when we all knew the news..
Because my friend never told us before..
I was very sad for her..
Especially when I think that she is such a nice and kind hearted girl..
She should be blessed with happiness..
When we went to the wake..
She seems normal..
But I can see from her watery eyes that she is trying to be brave..
On the day of the funeral..
When I followed closely behind her..
I nearly shed..
Don’t know what I else can I do for her..

Images of the past kept repeating..
Some things which I thought I had forgotten..
Don’t talk about it..

Went for dinner with Angel and Shevon at AMK..
Missed that place..
Chat about our past..
Found out that the stuffs SHE chat about is quite different from my sisters..
Different types of experience..

Break for one week..
So this will be my initial plan..
Finish watching ‘it started with a kiss’..
Cycling..
Learn how to blade..
K Box..
Shop for earrings..
Shop for jeans..
Eat Kim chi soup..
Do my reports..
Do up my blogs..
MOS...

Song intro: Love me again- Kelly

You raise me up- IL Divo

Today's Joint Sharing..
I freaked out when I saw the number of audience I have..
Messaged Kenny for SOS..
But in the end decided I should overcome it myself..
And I did..
No big mistakes made..
Phew..

I am seen but not heard..
I am here but not exactly here...
I am strong but weak..
Vulnerable in every sense..
Weaker in every way..
Why can't everyone around me be blessed?
Contradicting..
I somehow wish...

Song intro: You raise me up- IL Divo

When you tell me that you love me- Westlife and Diana Ross

Tomorrow presenting for Group C Joint Sharing Session alone..
Actually I did a video but due to some circumstances..
I don't think I will present that..
No mood..

Today is a bad day..
News that comes just get worse..

Sometimes I just wish...
I just wish..

Song intro: When you tell me that you love me- Westlife and Diana Ross

Xin dong xin tong- Liu gen hong & Evonne Xu

Back to BPOS.. I am totally lost..
And not used to the life in Singapore at all..
The whole week, the topic was still about Taiwan..
Lots of different rumors spreading and affecting one's life..
Lots of confusion and mocking...
Back to work.. Totally love the people there..
craving..
dependent.. reliant..
daze.. empty.. faint..
weak.. delicate.. fragile.. faint-hearted..
I have changed..
But yet..
I am happy for others..

Song intro: Xin dong xin tong- Liu gen hong & Evonne Xu

Now that she's gone- J.J Lin

I think my readers might wonder this..
Why did I not blog about him for such a long time..
I have been trying ways and means to let go of the feelings I've been clinging onto..
I have succeeded.
After half a year of dragging and letting go..
I think I actually did it..
Though my heart still feels the wretchedness..
But I will be fine..
Thanks to those in my circle of trust..
They helped me lots..
Through the events happening for the past six months..
Especially the most recent one..
One week of self numbing every night..
You know I know..
I am well trained now..

Song intro: Now that she's gone- J.J Lin

Da an- Kelly Poon

TAIWAN TRIP

day one

woke up at 3.30am..

took maxi cab with lia, jo and km..

reach airport at 5.40am..

mad and dage came to send us off..

china airlines sat beside km..

harry potter and a nap..

reach taipei..

tour guide elephant..

humorous and nice guy..

lunch at dian shui lou..

xiao long bao..

kilin hotel..

eerie..

shopping at xi men ding, sogo..

took their jie yun..

nearly flew off.. haha..

cos it's fast..

start of secret friend..

i had to take care of jack..

back at hotel games..

day two

breakfast at hotel..

visit to sheraton hotel..

luxurious and cool..

sightseeing at tamsui..

cold but nice scenery..

tamkang university..

where metoer garden film their show..

night at shilin night market..

tasted lots of delicacies..

guan cai ban, da bing bao xiao bing, he zai mian xian, hao da da ji pai..

hong you chao shou is my fav..

shopping..

games at hotel..

end of secret friend..

jack must buy me a gift..

i must buy kenny a gift..

cos i guessed wrongly..

i had three guess..

jo, km or kenny..

but i guessed jo..

day three

breakfast at hotel..

leofoo village..

FUN!!

small roller coaster ride

i still freak out..

free fall

i took lots of courage to overcome it..

pirate ship

mad's trick made me survive..

the water boat

BEST but we were all drenched and super cold..

aladdin's carpet, on air cycling, zoo..

i got too high..

Gu gong buo wu yuan..

lots of antiques..

learnt lots of stuffs..

shopping at raohe ye shi..

games at hotel..

counter strike.. lolx.. you know i know..

day four

packed stuffs..

went to china airlines..

Xiao gu gong..

embarrassing moments..

according to them, me chinese name is bad..

it is said that though i work very hard, i will still fail with all the barriers..

taipei 101..

damn high..

sight is magnificent..

reached taichung..

shopping at fong jia night market..

terpanyaki with jack and kenny..

super cheap..

check in at twin star hotel..

better than the first one..

went to the shopping mall next door..

arcade..

games again..

toilet bowl time..

lolx..

day five

packed stuffs again..

cannot wake up..

providence university..

people there super friendly..

lunch mini jap huo guo..

national museum of natural science..

everybody shagged..

back to taipei..

best hotel of the three we stayed..

SHE's room super big..

unfair.. haha..

last minute shopping at xi men ding..

Jack bought me a belt..

games again..

sleep in SHE's room..

last day

breakfast at hotel..

went to a tea lesson..

the hong kong guy there damn funny..

what SHE, F4, zai zai, bao long, wu qi long and xie ting feng..

you know i know..

bid goodbye to da xiang..

sad to leave taiwan..

gonna miss lots of things there..

the freezing weather..

the 7 elevens there..

the games we played..

the time we spent together..

the shopping..

the freedom..

china airlines again..

this time round sit with kenny..

reached spore..

shocked to see mum and sis came to fetch me..

the end..

Song intro: Da an- Kelly Poon

Down- Lin Jun Jie

Friday..
Luggage packed
Currency changed
Leave applied
Parents approved
3 more days to depart
Today meeting with Deputy Director..
[Due to some unforseen circumstances, we might not be able to leave on monday...]
Postponed?
CANCELLED?!
WHAT THE?!
Anger, disappointment, tears..
Feel like killing people..
Suggestion: Make it to a private leisure tour?
COOL..
better than nothing..
No teacher..
it's okay..
depart on either 8th or 13th?
but no hotels or no air tickets..
Er..
depart on 6th or 20th?
heartbeats..
6th!!!
YEAH!!
final verdict?
3 cancelled their trip..
parents don't allow..
left with 16..
haiz..
so am i still going?
to be continued...

Song intro: Down- Lin Jun Jie

Ai cuo-Lee Hom

tues..
train stuck.. lots of people late.. passengers were quite fed up especially when it stops for 10 times for a less than 10 minutes journey.. lolx.. everybody was making the 'tsk' sound and looking at their watch.. busy at Bpos.. calling, doing reports, organising.. bla bla.. need to rush through every job so that i won't leave too much for Erica to do alone next week.. feel so bad letting her handle the things herself next week.. tues night went shopping at bugis with my sis.. before headed down to Mr. Kim there to eat.. miss his korean delicacy..

wed...
train stuck again.. continuing doing work at bpos.. then the whole bpos went for a ice breaking game at the stadium.. actually it is fun but nobody was in the mood.. for me, i was not in the mood too cos i had lots to do at bpos.. my team was the 'LION' lead by David.. all my team members are guys.. lolx.. dots.. but luckily i knew most of them already.. heliyanto, chee yong, xiang long and one more guy.. first round of the game, our team lost 50 points already.. lolx.. all 5 of us lost.. haha.. but luckily in the end we were not the losing team.. finale, we are suppose to cheer.. lolx.. i shouted to give them the support.. haha.. miss orientation days.. okay then back home i packed my luggage.. i'm ready to depart..

thurs..
busy at bpos.. finally finish the progression report.. 3 more days and i'll be off to taiwan.. excited.. we were talking about the trip EVERY DAY.. haha.. but i will my beloved sisters.. guess what i forgot today.. lolx.. my formal shoes.. i was suppose to go and enlarge the front part today so that i can finally wear with ease tomorrow.. but.. haiz.. i only remember it when lia ask me when we are at bishan.. lolx.. nvm.. nothing new..

Song intro: Ai cuo- Lee Hom